I should have known something like this would happen. It’s because I was actually starting to like him, and anytime that happens they suddenly lose interest or find someone else. We’ve gone to the faire and that was okay, and then to Outland which I thought went pretty well. And we’ve even been spending more time at the ranger building, either on patrols or at the targets. Going to the city was fun too, he seemed really interested in finding just the right things we needed for the masks. The captain sent us with some money, and we found a shop that sold feathers and sequins and things like that. Truth be told, I think it was more meant for children to make things with, but they had what we needed. We got a lot of the mask shapes, and things to put on them like little glass gemstones, feathers, sequins and glitter. I also got wire for my moth wings, those were actually his idea. I hadn’t the first idea how to make moth wings.
Then now suddenly he doesn’t want to go to the dance anymore. I think it’s because I asked what he said about me to the other guys. I suspect that Ty and Arancon were just messing with me, because that’s the kind of thing they like to do, but Sunashe got really weird about it. That’s when he decided he didn’t want to go anymore, and it makes me wonder if it was just some kind of a bet or something they had going. See if you can get that pathetic lonely woman to like you, and then say you were just kidding. He wanted to know if I talk about him with Vellira. Of course I do, he should know that, Vellira talks about anyone to everyone. I said we did a bit, I left out some of the more colorful conversations like speculating on the size and shape of his ears (and other things). And the part where she says I should just find the closet, she’s always sure to point out exactly which closets are the best. Like I need to hear that! Sunashe also mentioned that he goes to see the Confessor. I know he’s not allowed to tell me what other people said, but I’m really curious now. I don’t think Sunashe is going to say, unless he’s on medication again or something. He claims he doesn’t even remember that, I haven’t brought it up since then.
It turns out he thought the faire went awful, but that’s because I barely knew him and still thought he was a bit of a jerk then. Also he kept saying I was beautiful, which is nice I guess but it doesn’t mean anything. Lots of guys say things like that, and they either don’t mean it or they only mean it long enough to get what they want. I don’t really think he’s like that — for one thing, we have to work together — but it’s hard to trust anyone after it’s happened so many times. I want to, and I think doing other things together is helping, but I guess not if he doesn’t want to anymore. He did agree to go to the city again. I wanted to get a dress for the party, one that would match with my mask. Just something simple, but I don’t have very many dresses so I needed to buy one. The girl at the shop asked if he was my husband, it probably would have just been easier if he’d said yes. Instead I think she thought he was my guy friend who was just there because he liked dresses or something. We got lunch afterward, but there were a lot of people around so we didn’t talk about anything important, just usual stuff. Mostly about the party. His mask looks pretty good, he cut out little scales and put glitter on them, then he added some blue stripes. You can tell what it’s supposed to be. Mine is okay I guess, but the wings aren’t exactly the same shape. It looks a bit better now that it’s got glitter on it, and the feathers cover up some of the mistakes. Maybe it will look all right in the dark.
Maybe I should talk to Nessna, she probably has some better advice than Vellira. Although maybe not, because I hardly think the captain was as shy as Sunashe.