July 22, 2014 Leave a comment
I was so worried about getting everything just right. It sure didn’t help that Gael decided to go missing the day before. He’d spoken to Ty and asked him to take over his patrol that day, but he didn’t say why or where he had to go. Ty was nice enough to take it, of course, but he couldn’t tell me much more than that. The new kid came from the city yesterday, too. He’s really young, but he’s already had some training with the city guard, so he’s actually a pretty good shot. I figure he’ll be able to go on patrols once Lin or Nessna have had some time to see how he is. I just don’t want to be putting anyone in danger, though I know he’s eager to get started. I showed him the sleeping area, and the kitchen and the storage room — though he really doesn’t have much stuff. I thought he’d have brought more. I told him we could get a trunk for under his bed if he wants. Des came with him, I guess she probably made a portal so he wouldn’t have to walk as far. I left them alone to settle in and talk, I don’t think she’ll try to stay over here or anything though. I hope it works out for them, it would be pretty awful to move and start a new job only to split up later on. I think he’s a little nervous about meeting the other rangers, but he shouldn’t be. They are good guys and they’ll make sure he feels comfortable here. I think Orledin is proof of that.
Gael got home late and when I asked where he’d been he said he had gone to town to buy a ring. I definitely hadn’t expected that. I hope he knows what he’s doing too. I tried to warn him about mage girls with snobby parents but I guess he didn’t want to listen. Hopefully it all works out better for him than it did for me. I can’t be mad about it now though, not really. As painful as it all was, in a strange way it led to me coming here and meeting Nessna. We dropped Rylad off at the school with Hethurin. It’s only for a few days but I can’t help but worry that he’ll be upset and think we aren’t coming back. He’s just a baby, he doesn’t really understand. At least he’ll get lots of attention from the girls there though. I rented the same little cabin in Winterspring that I got last time I was there; it’s a little kaldorei-styled one near the lodge. They also rent rooms at the lodge, but I figured this would be more romantic — and private. I had to keep checking to make sure I still had the cloak in my bag. Nessna wanted to go and see the cats, so we went north up into the hills. There are several different colorations which I pointed out, and I showed her the cubs that are just starting to come out of the dens now because it’s the warmer part of the year. I don’t know if she’ll be able to befriend one in such a short time, but it’s definitely possible. They all have different personalities, just as people do, and it’s possible for them to just know it’s right from the start.
We talked about some other stuff, I’m glad it was cold because then she couldn’t see how nervous I was. I asked if she was cold and got the cloak out and put it on her. She was surprised when I told her it was yeti fur. People don’t use it too often because it’s difficult to cure properly; if you don’t do it right it keeps a rather unpleasant smell. I told her a little bit about the shop and she said she’d like to see it sometime. I know my parents would like that, they definitely want to meet her and Rylad. I waited for a while but she didn’t seem to find the box so I had to just ask. That was kind of awkward. It went a lot better than I expected! She said yes right away. I thought she’d want to wait for a while and I was okay with that, but she didn’t hesitate at all. I wish I could remember all the things I’d thought of to say, but I’m not good at that kind of thing. I wanted to tell her how wonderful and talented and beautiful she is and how much I want to be a family with her and Rylad. I think I said some of it but I don’t remember. I was just trying to believe she actually agreed to it. I’m still worried that something is going to happen and it’ll go wrong. When Kes and I split up I thought I’d die from the pain, but if Nessna left I know I would. I know it’s right this time and I am so afraid of doing something to ruin it. Well I did tell her about going through her drawer, but she wasn’t angry. She said it was sneaky, but the good kind of sneaky. I didn’t want to but I had to find out her size!
There’s a lot we haven’t talked about yet, but I know we’ll be able to figure it out. She did say she wants Rylad to have a sibling someday. I was really happy to hear that. I mean, I love him and I think of him as my son already — he is, isn’t he? But I’d like to be there through all of it and see it when it’s just born. I think that would be really amazing. I have to write and tell Isandri, if my parents haven’t already told her. She’ll definitely want to meet Nessna — I think she has briefly, when she was working at Isturon’s office, but I don’t know if she really remembers her. And she’ll definitely want to meet Rylad.