February 17, 2013 Leave a comment
The dragon is watching me while I work, his head resting on his paws. He’s watching me just like everyone else, waiting for me to make a mistake again. I don’t know what it is they expect of me — well I have an idea, but I don’t understand why it’s me. The rare times we do get to be alone, she just talks about other people. I don’t know if she even knows anything about me. And I don’t know why she has to be so mean, I tried asking that but she says they were mean first. I don’t think that makes it okay, I think if people are mean to you, it’s even more proof that you should be nice back to them. Obviously they need it more than most. Or maybe things are just different here in Outland. Here if you get a bad reputation, everyone knows about it. Nobody in Silvermoon cares about things like that, they have much more to gossip about.
Sanimir wants me to go there — well, to his house in the forest. The part that’s now got scourge in it. He was saying there are ghosts in his house, I think he was just trying to play a joke on me. Ghosts aren’t real. I explained they’re just tricks of the light or the way the wind sounds in the trees. There are much scarier things to worry about there, like scourge. He also mentioned big spiders, but if they’re anything like small spiders they won’t want to be around people. Kestrae sort of invited me to that, and then Sanimir mentioned that he had some shelves and furniture that needed fixing and I said I knew how, so I kind of volunteered myself for that too. For free, I guess. I mean not that I need a lot of money here, but if I’m going into the city all the time I need it for renting the dragonhawk and paying for my dinner. That place is expensive. I guess it’s good I don’t need a room at the inn, at least.
I’m so embarrassed, I fell asleep on her couch last night. I still had my boots on and everything. She said it was late so she was going to bed but I could tell she was mad or something, so I said she should stay and talk more. But then I fell asleep and messed that up. She doesn’t like that we always talk about other people, well she should stop bringing them up then. She said she didn’t want to upset Sanimir by telling him where Aeramin really was, but if I were him I’d be more upset if I found out later that my friend knew and didn’t say anything. That’s me though.
So then I asked why she didn’t come to the Sanctum more and she said she wanted to, but didn’t really explain why. She’s so secretive about some things, but not others. I mean most of the summoners that come at least try to pretend they’re something else, even here where it doesn’t matter. They say they are mages or researchers or professors. Kestrae just tells everyone. Maybe things have changed in Silvermoon after all. It’s been years since I’ve been there. Sanimir said we can take a portal right to his house, so I guess I won’t need to go through there, but now I’m kind of curious to. I bet Harkin wouldn’t be allowed though.