[Story] Fairsong Academy – Sorelle’s Diary

Dear Diary,

My flowers are dying. It made me so sad, I wish there was a way to keep them looking beautiful forever. Even if they were really dead, at least they would look all right. Soon I’ll have to throw them out and I don’t like that idea at all. My cloth flowers are pretty, but they’re nowhere near as delicate and of course they don’t smell like real flowers. I could smell them a little. I’m sure they were much nicer to everyone else. I’m going to look into spells that could do that. Or maybe make an illusion that looks like them, or something.

The rangers came by the other night. I didn’t see the other two, I guess they waited out by the road or maybe they went somewhere else. It’s close to summer so there are a lot of bugs outside at night, which I don’t mind because I like the ones that light up. They’re like little tiny flickers of flame in the sky. I tried to do what Xarola said and talk about normal things, but it’s difficult when you aren’t normal yourself. I talked a lot about my classes, like I always do. I said I think it’s more difficult to do frost magic when it’s warm out. That’s my theory anyway, the way it’s easier to work with existing fire than to conjure your own. Although Professor Raleth says that the frost magic uses the water in the air, and it doesn’t matter the temperature. If I was a frost elemental I wouldn’t want to come out in the summer. I’ve been reading some more of Xarola’s books but I didn’t mention those either. I really don’t see how any of those things are possible. Well, I guess some things might be. Sometimes I realize that I never got a chance to do the things in that book and I get upset because now I never will. It seems unfair. Xarola says it’s not really like that anyway, but I’m not sure how she would know, and also I’d rather find out for myself than listen to someone else tell me about it.

In the books they always say things about their feelings a lot. I don’t think that really happens, at least I’ve never heard people talk like that. I’m not sure yet what I would say, so I suppose that it’s good. I don’t know if I should go to see Hernester or not. It might just make things worse, or it could just be embarrassing. But I would like to see the rangers’ building one day. I know some of the students have been there, Keyalenn and Maerista, but they’re both older. Maybe they only allow older students to go. I could say I was going to visit Lin, she’s the one who came to see me and she seems nice enough. She has a new little baby, too. I don’t know anything about babies or how to hold them. That’s another thing I guess I won’t ever get to learn.

I didn’t mean for this to be a sad entry. Things are all right. I hope the rangers visit again soon, but I need to find something more interesting to talk about.

[Story] Fairsong Academy – Sorelle’s Diary

Dear Diary,

I asked Xarola what to do, and she said that she thinks he definitely likes me, because he comes to visit all the time. I don’t know if that’s true, because Orledin comes to visit all the time too, though he spends all his time in the kitchen. I just thought he came along because he was bored, or to keep an eye on Orledin or something. I can see him doing something like that. I said I didn’t think so, because he’d never given me any signs or anything like that. I also told Xarola about how they treat Hernester, and she said I should go and talk to the captain there. I really don’t think he would listen to someone he doesn’t even know. A lot of people don’t like being told they are doing things the wrong way. Xarola said he’d listen to me because I’m undead and I know more about it, well that’s not really true in my experience. Then when I was already there I could talk to Salenicus. But I don’t even know what I would say. He stopped coming to visit anyway, so I thought that was the end of it. Then Linarelle came to see me and I told her about it, and I guess she talked to him because he changed his mind and brought flowers.

They were nice flowers. I’m pretty sure they were bought in the city because they aren’t ones that grow here, and it’s still a bit too cold for flowers. There was a card too, with a poem. He didn’t write it but he said that was how he feels. It was a nice poem. I didn’t know he felt any of those things. I mean, just because I’m the only person here who is undead too. I guess there’s the ranger, but she doesn’t talk to them. So he picked me because I’ll talk to him. He said that he was lonely, I can understand that at least. But it’s a long way to go just to talk to someone every day. I mean, we can’t do any of the things in the book — well, most of them anyway. That’s another thing, he said his wife used to read those books. I don’t know what to think about that. Does he still miss her? He probably does. He’s a lot older so I should have figured he would have had a family before. He also said he doesn’t care that I’m a human. Obviously I don’t care that he’s an elf, but I think elves tend to care a little more about that kind of thing.

They have the night patrol, but they take a couple of breaks during the night. I said it would probably be okay to meet outside in the garden, as long as I tell Tik. It wouldn’t be a good idea for them to be coming inside in the middle of the night, it might wake people up and scare them. But out in the garden, or the woods would be okay. Salenicus said he was going to try to get Orledin and the other ranger to stop here. I hope they aren’t just going to be standing around the whole time. That would be awkward.

[Story] Fairsong Academy – Sorelle’s Diary

Dear Diary,

I don’t know if I will go to any more dances. This one was kind of a disaster. The decorations were nice, but I could have seen those while they were putting them up earlier. And I guess the music too, but I can hear that from the study rooms if I want to. And I suppose it was nice to see Lora in the dress I made for her, it looked really pretty. I know she liked it, I hope Keyalenn did too. I did tell Xarola that I could make some for her as well, if she brought me the fabric. If I could, I would just go into Silvermoon and get it myself, but I can’t. She wasn’t sure what kind to get so I asked what the dress was for; whether it’s a fancy ball dress or outdoor robes or just everyday. It sounds like she wants everyday robes, but durable enough to wear outside when she goes to look for herbs. So it should be fairly sturdy fabric but also washable. She wanted to give me gold for it, I told her I didn’t need any but she insisted. It’s not like it costs me anything to sew them, except for time, and I like doing it because it helps pass the time. But she said she would feel wrong taking my work for free. Salenicus said I could have my own dress shop. I’ll admit that I’ve thought about it — more recently — but I just don’t think it’s realistic. Where would I get the cloth? And no one is going to come to a shop run by an undead person. Besides that, how would I afford to rent the stall or shop? Especially if it was a place like Dalaran. I’ve thought about going back there. I could leave anytime I want, I’ve passed my exams. I just wanted to get better at frost and arcane magic, for myself. But I wouldn’t know anyone there, and I don’t have enough money to get a room. I don’t know what I would do there. It’s just a silly dream.

I went out into the garden, I was feeling too crowded inside and also everyone was dancing. I brought one of my books to study, it’s not too dark if you sit near the lamps. Salenicus came out, which surprised me because I didn’t think he had come. I thought Xarola said she saw him, but she meant Salastion instead. I guess maybe Orledin had brought some bread along with him tonight, and that’s why he came. I’m still nervous that the headmaster is going to change his mind about allowing them. It barely seems like we’re allowed as it is. And I thought they were treated better at the rangers’, and it seems like they are, except for Hernester. He’s an older undead whose mind has gone. Apparently they just keep him around like some sort of deranged pet. How awful! I can’t even imagine how he and Orledin are okay with it. He said it’s okay because he wants to be in the yard. First of all, if his brain is gone how can you even be sure what he really wants? He can’t tell you. He’s just acting on memory and instinct now, the same as an animal. I don’t know, it just seems cruel to treat him that way. The thought of that happening to me later on made me feel sick. I don’t want some living people treating me like a guard dog or something and moving me inside when it rains. I thought about going to see him, but I’m not sure what good it would do. He probably wouldn’t understand me anymore.

He also asked if I wanted to dance. It was very sudden, especially because he never hinted about that any of the times he brought bread. I mean I just thought he was coming along because Orledin wanted to, and he makes a lot of bread. I have a feeling him asking was Orledin’s idea, and I don’t know what to think about that. I just didn’t feel good about it, and then he was insisting, saying it was just one song and things like that. Maybe I should have said yes? It was only one song. I guess it would have been more polite, but I didn’t really want to. Then he said he had to leave for patrol anyway, so I don’t understand why he asked in the first place if he knew he had to leave. That’s pretty rude if you ask me. If I had said yes he would have had to rush off in the middle and then I would have looked silly. Well, there was no one else outside, thankfully. I should ask Xarola about it, she knows a lot about guys. Alive ones though, I don’t know if that makes a difference.

[Story] Sorelle’s Diary

[[ Kids are off on Spring Break this week, we’re also preparing for our moving sale next weekend, so it’s kind of busy around here. Doing my best to write anyway! ]]

Magister Fairsong brought me some wood from the city. There’s a cloth bag and it’s full of little pieces, all different sizes and colors. I don’t know what kind of wood any of them are, but they seem like they’re nice. Definitely nicer than firewood for carving. Most are squares or rectangles but some are triangles, or have a little curve. There are also some metal tools and a book about how to carve things. I don’t know how much Salenicus knows about it, so hopefully the book is useful to him. I have everything ready for the next time they bring bread. I tried to give Magister Fairsong some money for it, but he said it was okay. That was nice of him. When I asked him about going, he thought it was for me. I guess I could have said it was, but then he’d notice when I was never carving it. Maybe I could learn too, but I already have my own hobby. Two, actually, sewing and gardening. I just said it was for someone else, I’m pretty sure he could figure it out because no one else ever talks to me for more than a few minutes, besides teachers anyway.

I think he was kind of upset about that, like he thinks they should be spending more time with me. If they don’t want to, that’s okay. I don’t want him to force them, having people pretend to like you doesn’t feel good. It’s my hope that eventually they will get used to me and someone will be able to see past it, but it does take time. I’m not ashamed to admit that I probably wouldn’t have wanted to talk to a dead person before, either. Loralinde is really interested in ghosts, so I have a feeling she might ask me about that. It’s kind of her hobby, I guess. Even being a magic student, you need something to do in your own time. She says she talks to the different ghosts here and is trying to study them. I don’t know how the ghosts feel about it. If I was a ghost it might feel like she was being kind of nosy, but I’m not a ghost. I have seen some in the ruins of Lordaeron though, and there are other kinds of undead there. I could tell her about those if she asks me. If she really wanted, she could go and see them for herself but I do not recommend it. That city is really disgusting and smelly. I’m dead and even I could smell it.

He also asked a lot about the ball, like if I was going to go. I can’t eat anything, so it’s awkward to just sit around and watch everyone else dance. It just makes me feel sad and more left out. I didn’t want to say that because I think he already felt guilty when I said that people don’t talk to me. But even he didn’t allow undead until recently, or did he forget about that? Orledin and Salenicus weren’t even allowed to come in until I came here. And that was only because Magister Raleth vouched for me. If not for him, I wouldn’t be allowed here at all. I don’t know, I thought about sewing a new dress, I have some nice pastel fabric and I could make some fabric flowers to go on it. I can’t use real flowers because I don’t want to pick them from the garden, plus these ones won’t die. But it seems like it would be a waste to make a dress for a party I won’t even stay at. I still have a little while to decide.

[Story] Fairsong Academy – Sorelle’s Diary

Orledin brought way too much bread. He disappeared into the kitchen again, which is strange because I don’t think Tik is even in there, he’s still looking after Lilithel and the baby. Terellion might be, so I suppose they were talking about cake and flour and baking things. I didn’t know there was so much to discuss about baking. I think I would get frustrated baking things all the time and never being able to taste them, but I guess Orledin doesn’t mind. I do think it’s important for undead people to have a hobby though. We have so much more free time, we have to fill it with something. It’s also my theory that it helps keep your brain from deteriorating.

Salenicus said you can slow it down by taking good care of yourself and not getting too damp, but I already knew that. I always am careful to keep clean, it’s almost important to check regularly for pests and make sure you don’t get too cold because your fingers or toes could freeze off without your even noticing. Thankfully I don’t think it gets that cold inside, but Salenicus goes out into the woods and it’s a lot colder there. He doesn’t seem too worried about it though, maybe they have really thick socks or something. He said he has a hobby but he was really embarrassed about saying what it is. It’s just whittling, like wood carving. He says he’s not good at it, but that doesn’t matter, he has plenty of time to practice. I don’t know why he’d be embarrassed about wood carving. I did promise to look in the library for books about it. I didn’t find any, but the Headmaster said there’s a furniture shop in Silvermoon that sells books about wood carving, and he’d pick one up next time he is there. Also, I asked if he could get some little scraps of wood to try out carving. I’m sure some are better than others, but I don’t know enough about it to know which ones, but I figure if they use it for furniture it’s probably good. And they have to have little scraps laying around from that. It would probably also help if he had some proper tools, except I can’t afford to buy any of those right now. So I’ll have to save up, or maybe I could see about selling some of the things I’ve sewn. I can’t take them into the city though so I don’t know how I would do that. I guess I could ask someone to take them to one of the stalls, it’s a shame I can’t sit there and sell them though. I know which dresses would look good on which people, their frame and colors and such. I don’t know if the Headmaster would know that, I guess he might, he does have a lot of nice robes.

He said something else weird, he says he doesn’t care if alive people like him because they’re just going to die sooner. I mean, that’s true, but by that time a lot of undead people will have lost their brains too. I think it’s better if everyone likes me, but I know that’s not the case. I wish I didn’t care, I think it would be a lot easier. I try to fit in with everyone else but I still get this awkward feeling around them, like they’re trying not to look at me or something. I’d like to think that I wouldn’t be like that, if I were alive, but it’s impossible to know. It’s not something I even thought about before it happened to me.

[Story] Fairsong Academy – Sorelle’s Journal

Dear Diary,

Shattrath is such an interesting place! It’s definitely the most exotic place I have ever been. The Headmaster brought us all here, mostly to use the library but it’s sort of like a field trip too. I guess he and Terellion like coming here and it’s an excuse to bring us. I’m not complaining! I feel like there’s so much to see it’s going to take me a few trips to see everything. I don’t really know how to describe the buildings, they are stone – I think – but not like any other stone buildings I’ve seen before. They are curved and graceful and they look like they could have just grown up naturally out of the ground. They aren’t square and blocky like the buildings in most cities I’ve seen. Everything is glowy too, especially at night, and it’s really pretty. I think some of it is those night insects, but I think there’s a lot of magical light too. Apparently the draenei are very good at magic and they like to use it around their city. Draenei are the big blue people who live here. I saw a few of them in the center of the city but there aren’t too many on the Scryer’s Tier where we are staying. Xarola says it’s mostly blood elves here, though I have seen a few draenei. I don’t know how they feel about undead people so I haven’t tried talking to any. Xarola says they speak common though so I should be able to if I get the nerve. I’m not even sure what I’d say. I would definitely tell them that I like their city though. They have these enormous crystal beings made out of light that are called naaru. I read about them before in books, but it’s my first time seeing one in person. They are really beautiful and amazing. They make you feel calm just looking at them. I wonder if they sell miniature ones in the market, you know like a model to put in your room. It probably wouldn’t make you feel the same, but it would be pretty to look at and remind you of them. But then that might be disrespectful to them, I don’t know. I’d sure like to have a miniature one in my room though.

At the inn we all have our own rooms too. There’s a little desk for working, and a table to eat at. There’s a bowl of fruit and I would guess that they refill it every day. I don’t know though because I didn’t take any. I have a view out into the forest, at night I can see some really big moths flying out there. At first I didn’t know what they were and I thought maybe they were ghosts, but then I figured it out. I didn’t know moths could be that big! The library here is really nice, it’s been a long time since I’ve been to a large one like that. Xarola says the one in Silvermoon is too, I’m sure it is but I’m not allowed there. In Dalaran they had a few libraries, the main one was very large and fancy and then there were some smaller specialized and privately-owned ones that they would sometimes open to the public. And the library at the school isn’t too bad, it’s small but all of the books are really good in it. We have some work to do while we’re here so it’s not all a vacation, but I always have a lot of extra time anyway because I don’t have to sleep. I might save my work for the late hours so I can do other things during the daytime.

Xarola went with me to the market. I’m glad she did, because we’re not allowed to go alone and I thought I might not be able to go. So that was nice of her. I bought some new journals, one of them had that elf ranger on the cover. He’s really handsome. I also bought some new pens. Xarola said I should buy the paper that was printed with hearts and flowers on it. I don’t know why she would think I need something like that. Who am I going to write to on heart paper? I just got plain paper. We also went to the book shop. Xarola wanted to get a book about a dragon that falls in love with a woman. I just think that’s a little bit weird. I think I’d rather read a book about a handsome elf or something. She said I could borrow it if I wanted, I guess I might. I told her about how I want to try to learn about gardening. Luckily they had some gardening books, so I got those too. At the fabric store I got a few things, since it’ll be spring soon I got some fabric in spring colors. I told Xarola about how I like to sew dresses. It seemed like she might be interested in that. I’d need her measurements if she wanted me to make her one though. She did have a good idea about making cloth flowers though, you can use them to decorate a robe or just to wear in your hair. They’re easy to make and very pretty. The store had a big bundle of small scraps for sale that would be perfect for making those. I can make them at night for everyone, even the girls. I bet they would love them. I’m excited to start making them. It gives me something to do, and it’s nice to do things for others. There’s enough cloth that I could

[Story] Fairsong Academy – Sorelle’s Diary

Dear Diary,

Orledin came to the school again, he baked some little cookies for the baby that looked like a baby head. That sounds weird, but they were cute. I wish I could have eaten one, I bet they were really good. As soon as he arrived, he went right into the kitchen again. I don’t really think he wants to talk. The other death knight came too though, he was out in the sitting room while I was studying. I’m trying to get better at arcane, especially portals, so I’ve been doing extra studying in my free time. I think it would be great to be able to just go anywhere I like. Well, anywhere I’ve seen before, but that’s still a lot of freedom. It’s not that I don’t like it here, just sometimes it would be nice to go somewhere on my own.

He asked what I was reading about and I explained, he also wanted to know what I do when I’m not studying. I said that I like sewing, it’s fun to be able to make something out of just some cloth and thread. I’m not an expert or anything, but I’m pretty good and I can make some nice things. It’s handy when I can’t get to any shops, which I can’t here. I could ask Tik or the headmaster to buy fabric for me I suppose, but they won’t know exactly what I want. I like to be able to see and touch it before choosing. When I lived in the tower I never got fabric so I just had to use whatever was there, those dresses weren’t very nice. Since they’re going to build a greenhouse, I thought I might try gardening as well. I don’t think it would be too difficult and I like the idea of being able to grow something, make something pretty where it wasn’t there before. Plants won’t care that I’m not alive.

From what he said, being a ranger is pretty good. He said he likes that Sunashe yells at him, which I thought was pretty weird, but then he explained that he meant because he’s treated like a regular elf, and not an undead one. That makes sense, though I still don’t think I’d like getting yelled at. There are three undead rangers, they’re all elves but one is a girl too. Plus the one outside. I don’t like that they call him the “lawn ornament”, even if he’s lost his memory it’s still not very nice. I think I’d be upset seeing him there every day and reminding me of what’s going to happen. I hope it doesn’t for a long time. There must be mages working on stopping it, right? If that’s even possible. I’m the first undead person allowed here, and that’s only because Magister Raleth vouched for me. Otherwise I’d still be banned, and so would the undead rangers. I told the death knight that it still feels weird sometimes, like they’re trying to be friendly but they don’t really know how. Which might be true.

I am looking forward to Shattrath though. Salenicus said there’s a market there, and undead aren’t banned, unlike Silvermoon, so I’ll be able to buy things. I have some money saved up so I hope they have some nice fabric. It’ll give me something to do at night that’s not loud. I don’t want to disturb anyone. I also want to get some more journals for writing in. I don’t know what else, maybe some garden tools, but I think Terellion might already have those. But it would be good to have my own.